solace in journaling long cycles
There's something about the nature of persistence of things in life that I haven't completely grasped comfortably. I think my brain gets weirded out at something that suggests a rut ('I was right here years ago') even when there isn't one in a negative way. Somehow demarcating what happened since then ('when was I last here?') helps clear that light anxiety.
Occasionally I get into the habit of writing a couple bullet points of stuff I've done every day. I get a bit uneasy when I feel my days are kinda blurring or melting into each other and I've discovered that being able to be like 'so that's what I was doing' kinda clears that feeling a bit. It can get a bit oppressive if I try to keep it too comprehensive so if I forget something or skip a day I just let it go.
(I don't do much 'real' writing because it takes me forever and I sometimes find it a waste to crystallize fleeting thoughts especially when they're repetitive or meandering/useless.. but on the flipside I'm glad I got a few people whom I can email with such issuances when I really need to put em down.. also when things are going well in my life I'm less introspective about things and hence less prone to needing to write much.)
In sum: yay for journaling, archiving information and having an ability to keep track of what you've been up to..