Hey, where are you posting from, hon? Are you here in the apartment and I don't know it? *checks under sofa*
I mentioned your resolve to the cute, chubby, hungover-from-her-birthday-pub-crawl, bodega girl and she said she's gonna refuse to sell to you. And you know that's the only place to get cigarettes in the city, so you're outta luck. ; )
I'm back home, and holding steady, although whenever I leave a building, I notice my hand fluttering towards my shirt pocket whenever I leave a building (seriously) and I having images of myself smoking, but I've got a can of Ranch Flavor Cashews, a box of White Cheddar Cheez-It's, a pound of peanut butter M&M's, and a lot of beer, so I should be OK. and big and fat. which is OK, I need to beef up.
Pistachios also help, because they're so fingery-fidgety.
Having stuff to do with your hands is important. Even though I haven't smoked for six years, I fidget all the time - smoking was just a convenient way to direct the urge to fidget. So make sure you have a lot of little doodads, pens, pencils, snacks that are fun to open/unwrap, Silly Putty, whatever.
I having images of myself smoking
Me too, even after years, but they are not serious. Just a habit of the synapses. They don't have any power after a while.
big and fat. which is OK,
Absolutely. I gained about 20 pounds after my quit - but took it off by the time a year had elapsed. It's a lot easier to lose weight (if you need to) than to quit smoking. The thing is, even if you get fatter, you're still way ahead of the game in the health department. Use this an excuse to explore and indulge new snack food horizons!