(Cross posting from AskMe) I've ceased smoking cigarettes. Problem - I have developed severe motivation problems. Suggestions for solutions?
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The setup:
2/3rd to 1 pack a day smoker for a dozen years. Started 150mg Zyban for 3 days. Successfully defended MSc thesis. Upped Zyban to 150mg/day x2 daily. Stopped nicotine intake. Zyban was adversely affecting me and I cut back down to 150mg/day in the morning only.
It's been 19 days of nicotine abstainance (aside from a Marly light which didn't do anything for me about 4 days after the cessation - which confirmed that the Zyban is interfering with positive sensations of nicotine intake). Major symptoms are gone. Minor symptoms (difficulty concentrating, random desire for vapourized nicotine intake, minor irritability) persist. Symptoms intensify when smoking triggers (leaving the lab at the end of the work day, after meals, having alcoholic beverages with friends, &c) present themselves but I tolerate those.
Problem: I've realized that I used cigarettes heavily as a reward mechanism. I'll make myself do something "unpleasant" on the assumption that I will go for a walk and a cigarette afterwards. Also, cigarettes as a "break" when doing work/concentration intensive activities for extended periods of time.
Now that I've decided to abstain, I find myself with extreme difficulty concentrating on mental activities (say, writing a protocol to apply for ethics review board approval of a minimally invasive procedure) or making myself start such activities (like putting a huge bollus of data togather and preparing a manuscript for submission for peer review) or when I try to mentally engage in understanding written work (such as peer-reviewed scientific articles).
When I "man up" and make myself procede, feelings of irritability and lack of focus are very strong and is usually accompanied by dizzyness and occassionally blurred vision.
Solicitation: Can you suggest anything to help me overcome this diffculty in motivation?
Difficulty: I abhor sweets and chocolate. I do high impact, low cardiovascular exercise daily in the mornings before showering.
Sorry for being so long-winded.