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[More:] but I have a biopsy tomorrow. Today I have to get over to the hospital for all the pre-surgery stuff. My wife being unable to drive is a huge hassle, as we need to arrange rides for everything that I cannot walk or bus to. Bussing over there is possible but it's sort of a long way. There are people available and glad to help, and more will be, once they know.
I actually looked at my CT scan yesterday and it was very chilling to see the tumors in my lungs and liver. The lung specialist (they are going through my windpipe down there to grab whatever they can) did not have a great bed-side manner and was very opaque about possible treatments (I'm just the plumber here) although if it turns out to be lung cancer he's my guy. If its melanoma I have an appt on next Thursday with someone else.
My wife and I came home, both very discouraged, and just sort of laid around in the a/c living room for the rest of the day. It is in the 90's all week which is normal but it is also hard to be outside. I will go for a walk this morning, maybe down to the gym.
My primary advised me yesterday to remove as much animal fat and protein from my diet as possible. I had a totally vegan dinner last night and for whatever reason I hurt just a bit less this morning but it is probably just coincidence.
I should know the biopsy results early next week at the latest then maybe I can start some sort of treatment. I still think that there is a chance that this or that treatment will have at least SOME success, but I have to make it long enough to get there (which I will. . .I am being a bit dramatic).
I have this sort of estranged friend who is a lawyer. I emailed him yesterday apprising him of stuff and asking if I can hire him to do a will. He jumped in and is doing all of it for free, which is nice.
Of course my mood has been all over the place. *Now* is not bad and I am trying to stay there, even amidst all of the logistics. I updated my sister, who was sitting on the beach at San Onofre (she missed the first call as she was out surfing) and she and my brother are still not apprising my mom of anything. I would like for them to ease her into it but they are down there and since I cannot bear to tell her outright, I am leaving it in their hands.
All of the public and private expressions of support are deeply touching and helpful.