When I was a girl, I wished and wished and wished that I could trade places with George Michael's girlfriend, whoever she may be. I would spend hours fantasizing about what an amazing life she must have, living each day as George Michael's girlfriend. I was nearly thirty before the love I felt for George Michael stopped blocking my gaydar detection system. Now I see so clearly, I was never ever ever ever going to be George Michael's girlfriend.
I envy - and would sometimes want to swap places with - people who have close families. But as that's something I've never had, I'm on the fence about whether I could really cope with it.
I have a very good life, with no-one to answer to. I can spend my money how I want to, go wherever I want, whenever I want, do exactly as I want to do. But sometimes I look at my friends who had fantastic single or pre-chldren lives, but who are now settled with their kids and I wish I could have the happiness that children have brought to them.
I look at people sometimes and think "I could do so much better with the resources you have available to you", but who knows if that's the truth. And even then, I wouldn't want to swap lives, I'd like to have my life, with their perks.
I have a friend whose husband make loads of money, seriously, a lot. But their daughter is developmentally disabled, and will need lifetime care. And my friend has an autoimmune disorder. From the outside, someone's life may look easy, but you never know.
Would be nice to have more resources, but, I have more than some, so, maybe I should complain less, get off my butt and do more with my own life. Or, hey, what's on netflix?