I am just about to give up on trying to make new friends.
Instead of posting a rambling AskMe for which there will be no real answers, I think I'll just post here and hope for some commiseration.→
For the past year or so, I've been working really hard to make some actual friends and though I've had some limited success, I've really hit a wall lately and feel like giving up the idea all together, and get used to the idea of enjoying my own company the rest of my life.
The main catalyst for this is that last month, I decided to have a clothing swap party. I'm not a big fan of parties where 200 people are invited, so I only invited about ten chicks who I already considered friends or seemed liked good candidates. I certainly didn't expect everybody to be able to come, but maybe half? Most people didn't even bother to respond. I was especially hurt that one girl I thought I was on track to actually becoming good friends with didn't even acknowledge the invitation . I ended up canceling the party because I felt like such a loser.
I've been depressed about this for about a month now, which is probably the longest I've ever been depressed about something. I'm just finding the feeling of rejection hard to shake and am very wary of "putting myself out there" in any way again and I used to be so enthusiastic about trying to make new friends.
Just recently, one of the girls I had invited to my clothing swap party (someone I had only met once but genuinely liked and thought I clicked with) but who couldn't come, invited my to a party at her place, but then I realized it was one of those "home party" deals where they try to get you to buy something. Which makes me feel used and even more depressed.
Ugh, why are people so disappointing?