1. Had a nightmare this morning that I was in Haiti, and all hell had broken loose. Obviously, it was some time in the 1970's, because the Tonton Macoutes had kidnapped my dog and were holding her for ransom, and I had to go meet them at some appointed time, which was made even more difficult by the presence of a sniper who was taking out foreigners. In my dream I was totally screwed, because I speak no Creole whatsoever, and I was desperate to get my dog back.

2. It's supposed to rain even more tonight, which sucks major ballz. The ground is already so mushy and muddy, and I have to dig clumps of it outta the pup's paws every time we take a walk. So over it.

3. Have a doctor's appointment first thing tomorrow morning. Why oh why did I set it so early? I hate having my blood drawn first thing (I always get lots of blood drawn because I have a minor blood clotting disorder, and monitoring it requires copious amounts of mi sangre)

Sunday TPSing? Why yes indeed I am TPSing on this fine day! I'm always TPSing.

I kid, I kid.

Salmon eggs on toast with bacon will sure any hangover. So. Much. Salt.

Why is it go gray out?

I forgot about the coffee and almost burned a hole in the wall. Now the house smells like burnt coffee. Sorry.

1. Went to two parties last night, drank a little but not much at all (2 beers), danced and had lots of fun. I needed a night out like that.

2. Woke up in the middle of the night feeling a bit ooky, which should have been a harbinger for the vomiting I would do shortly after getting up this morning. A friend I saw last night fears she was "Typhoid Marianne" and gave me her son's horrible stomach virus.

3. Because of #2, I won't be having my dinner guests over tonight after all.

1. It's not fair that not only do I have to work on the weekend, but I have to get a pissed off email from my boss the second I get here, which caused a great deal of unnecessary stress for me as I didn't actually do anything wrong.

2. Whay can't I lose any weight? I feel like I hardly eat anything anymore.

3. If I bring a kid into this world on my own, as I plan to do, it will have no dad, no aunts or uncles, and no cousins... Just me, and my parents while they are still around. This makes me feel terribly selfish and narcissistic.

1. My body decided that I didn't need to sleep last night. I think it was wrong. The hours spent watching Celebrity Rehab, Jersey Shore Reunion and old Twilight Zone episodes would have been much better spent asleep. (Well, except for the TZ episodes. They are always a joy.)

2. Super excited for upcoming trip to Vegas with my sisters. Am already annoying them with my penchant for planning. But there's nothing I hate more than wasting time with the "What do you want to do?/I don't know. What do you want to do?" conversation.

3. I hope you feel better, Stewriffic. Pukey sick is the worst sick.
3A. Amro, having even ONE person who wants and loves them in this world will already make that child better off than a sadly large percentage of other kids. Plus, you develop all kinds of unexpected connections when you join the Mom Cabal. (Yes, there is a cabal.)

1. I went to a chorus coaching session which I absolutely love and it made me think that maybe I'm really not that sick.

2. After spending an hour throwing up a day's food and then 13 hrs. sleeping, and now weak today, I have to admit that I am really that sick, and there's a reason I'm on leave from work.

3. DH is putting the Ralph Lauren Spinnaker royal blue paint on the family room walls and it looks fantastic and doesn't smell like paint at all.

Amro, you are just in touch with your feelings like this because you're doing it different from the norm. Really, I think there's a large number of parents, single or otherwise, that feel this way to a degree some/most of the time, but they may not be honest or aware about it. It is not selfish or narcissistic, it is that you are focused on what it would mean to be a dedicated parent connected to your child. That's a good thing. And, you can probably expect that these feelings of pure dedication will vary from isolationist to broad connections. Don't dismay!

1. Did laundry. I need a nap.

2. Worked out color scheme and paint quantities for the total repaint. I need a nap.

3. Trying to get to the paint store and then come back and move out all the stuff from the office to replace the window, but I need a nap.

I haven't had a nap, yet.

1. Quite pleased with my latest dance DVD purchase (which I needed like a hole in the head, but it got me free shipping on a book I needed for school) although I'm struggling with the instructor's thick accent.

2. Very excited about my homie coming to visit me this weekend. We haven't spent time together since September, which is a ridic long time for us. (Normally we aim for every 2 months or so, but life has gotten in the way. And brokeness.)

3. This week will be very busy since I'm losing the weekend where I normally do all my schoolwork and I have a paper due next week.

1. Had a new special someone come over and hang with my boys and I; watched a movie. It felt strangely (wonderfully) comfortable. Am liking this person more and more and more.

2. My team is out of the Superbowl. They're still a young team; maybe next year.

3. Kicking back, second football game on, texting my guy, loving my life much more than I ever thought possible just four months ago. Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.

1. Worked on my car
2. Worked on my motorcycle
3. Played drums

This is my life from now on.