Alas, most of the less hardcore/non-pharmaceutical things people use to get buzzed are bad for their sinus. ;-)

Yeah, I used my neti pot and that helped a lot.

Maybe i should try it.
It feels like parts of me don't want to be inside me or hate me right now for no good reason.
i keep debating on whether booze would help.
Varied pots aren't working.

The neti pot (actually, a commodified "sinu-cleanse" bought at Walgreens) took away the sinus pain, or at least helped dissipate it. There wasn't much lodged in my sinuses, but there had been allergies flaring up.

I am still working on how to get that nice narcotic buzz but in a healthier way. I suspect it will involve exercise and meditation.

Ok, i just took one and it's starting to make the world less of a pain riddled wish for death.
i tried some of those online medical sites but they all said PAIN=CANCER, which is crazy bullshit.
i'm always afraid they will make me suicidally depressed but it seemed worth the risk since another day of intolerable pain was not going to work.
It is beautiful outside and the Bees is so worried i haven't been out of bed that she's curled up next to me, occasionally prodding the back of my knees to see if i'm still alive.

Thank you, pain medication. Life must have sucked before you. Before i was writhing in pain, now i might be able to eat something.

Now I feel like a dealer. That didn't take long.

As i didn't give you money and you didn't give me drugs, and they are from old broken bones in my ad hoc apothecary, i think we're ok. The pain is not gone but it is at least tolerable. Little Doctor Bees has me on bed rest.

whew.

I'm pissed that kava kava is so hard to get now.

I suppose my kidneys are less pissed. But that was my legal anti-anxiety drug for a while.

Watching House and taking Vicodin.
i finally got back from the hospital and all anyone wants me to do is take Vicodin. i have to say, the morphine they gave me wasn't all that either.

When I had a kidney stone I got a shot of morphine in the tush before leaving emergency. In my pain I asked if I could have a little extra shot before I left, and they complied. I was hurting enough that I experienced no buzz whatsoever, but I was grateful for it.

Eth? What is wrong? :(

Another round of stump the doctor.
It's not hard to win in the Midwest. There really should be prizes, like gas vouchers and gift certificates.
i have to see someone tomorrow about a large ball of fluid.
i also have to eat this candy bar as i've barely eaten today. It says it's "substantialicious."

I'm sorry, honeybunny.

Large ball of fluid? Do tell. What sort of stumping are you doing on the poor doctors, love?

i'm too tired to go into much detail. Need to sleep.
Basically, there is a 7cm clear ball of fluid in my uterus for no reason any one explain. i was hoping for a mutant baby jesus for Orthodox Easter, but no, just another spontaneously generated enigma. It wasn't a 10 pound cyst that would explain and solve stubborn belly fat either.
And i was so ready for emergency surgery.
High white count, no fever, big question marks over people's heads.

There's a novel little essay waiting for less pain addled momets, but i'll let you know what happens after tomorrow.

Little Doctor Bees is terribly sulky about my being able to stand for several moments and yet not playing "chase that thing." Apparently, i suck.

eep! Leave it to you, eth, to confound medical science.

Sending you tons of hugs and love and feel-better sauce, sweetie. Please let us know what you learn. *airmails an assload of gentle whuffles*

Eek. Not having a uterus myself, I can only guess that having a 7cm clear ball of fluid there might not feel so great. I do hope everything is OK. Take care of yourself.

"Little Doctor Bees" may bee "terribly sulky" but she is SURE to help.

Lots of love.