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22 February 2007

If anyone is curious as to how the detox story progresses:
WARNING: Might be longer than OrangeSwan's great stories and not nearly as humorous.
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Well, after over a week of hospitalized detox, my friend M got discharged from the hospital Tuesday. She told our friend V to pick her up, but didn't want anyone else informed. Word spread rapidly, of course.

Considering more than a few statements that just don't add up, and several confirmed lies, I have a hard time believing her discharge wasn't against medical advice.

I saw M as I was arriving home from work. She indicated that she was going to turn off her phone (returned from me, and I was reimbursed the phone bill; kind of business-like) and wanted to be left alone. Not so unusual, from either of us. She was still very shaky and hadn't showered at the hospital (On Saturday, she wasn't allowed out of bed for fear of having a stroke, so sending her home without making sure she could take basic care of herself sent up many red flags.).

Shortly after, when all of our children were at a weekly indoor swimming thing, she called friend, V, and yelled at her for dumping out her alcohol supply. V wasn't the person who'd even done that.

Another friend, C, stopped by her house about a half hour later and her car wasn't there. C went driving around a short bit and saw M go to the grocery store and, of course, the drive-thru of the liquor store.

After the kids returned home, M sent her daughter to my home to ask about, in this order, her missing booze and her missing son. I mostly honestly didn't know the location of either and said so. The son was found by his little sister at his father's, and she convinced him to return to their mom's with her, even if just for a little bit. When they got there, M immediately started yelling at her son about the missing alcohol. He refused to answer. She slapped him hard enough to knock the glasses off of his face and a few other blows. He ran to his dad's (a couple blocks away) and the police were called.

There were no remaining marks when the police arrived, so no charges could be filed. The boy is staying with his dad. The police checked in with M. M told the police that, yes, she had bought the alcohol, but that she'd left it in her car, so she'd have the choice. They say she was sober at the time.

V, C, and I have all talked and, unless she calls, we have done all we can do, except to be there to help her daughter if necessary. M wants some space, and all we can do without pissing her off is give it to her. We have forgiven each other for our self-perceived failures in this. That was hard. M is my good friend. I miss her.

On my way to and from the bus stop today, I had to pass M's apartment and car. I chose to look at the sidewalk instead of looking into her car to see if the bottle was still there. I can only hope that she was looking out her window and understands that I'm respecting her need for choice and that she can call if she needs help that I am able to provide.

It's hard to feel like you're saying goodbye to a good friend and someone who's a fine and kind human being underneath the illness. But I understand that, realistically speaking, unless there is one of those rare miracles, I'll never get to know and love that person very well. I hope she decides to live.

Damn. I wish I had something nice to say to make something better. All I can say is you are a good friend and I hope this ends well for all.
posted by arse_hat 22 February | 01:43
Sorry to hear it, but you did what you could, and you knew it was long odds for her unless she discharged to rehab. And even then, it was still going to be a tough, uphill battle for her.
posted by paulsc 22 February | 01:51
As a recovering alcoholic, I know that M is in the grip of a deadly illness. The first taste of alcohol triggers the allergy/craving/compulsion. There is nothing you can do, lilywing, but let her know that you'll be there for her if she needs help getting sober. She has to reach her own rock bottom before she'll be ready to do that. Hopefully she'll still be alive by then.

For alcoholics there are only three possible outcomes - locked up, sobered up or covered up.

Today I am one of the lucky ones.

I wish you (and her) love and luck.
posted by essexjan 22 February | 02:23
Oh, lilywing I'm so sorry for this. You and your other friends have done everything humanly possible. M's daughter is lucky to have people like you to look out for her. I wish I had more I could offer. It's hard watching people hurt themselves. I had to go through this with my ex-husband. But even hitting bottom isn't enough for some.
posted by redvixen 22 February | 08:07
I'm sorry this is happening--but it's good that M's daughter knows you're there for her.
posted by brujita 22 February | 08:33
I'm sorry, lw. You are doing the right thing, though. May I also add that those of you who are involved might get something from Al-Anon or Alateen, both organizations for anyone affected (in any way) by the drinking of others.

Seems like the best thing you can do is keep an eye on the kids' situation.
posted by Miko 22 February | 09:26
((((hugs)))) lilywing. i had(ve) an x with this condition and thinking about your situation really makes me think of the kind, noble person that he could have been. his circle of friends and i could tell similar stories, tho thank god there are no children involved (well at least none we know of).

thanks for sharing with us, simply because if your story helps anyone it is well worth it.

my lesson from my experience with alcoholism was simple but it was kind of a big life lesson for me, tho it's been said many times/ways: i cant fix someone who doesn't want to fix themselves.
posted by lonefrontranger 22 February | 10:51
Ugh, your story really breaks my heart! What kind of guy is the kid's dad? I hope he's the kind of person who's willing and able to step up to the roll of being the sole parent and caregiver. The kids will need somebody who can take care of them emotionally as well as the basics, and reassure them that they bear no responsibility for what's happening.
posted by pieisexactlythree 22 February | 15:01
(((lilywing)))
posted by deborah 22 February | 16:26
Jan, thank you for sharing your insight. I was very much hoping you'd chime in.

lfr, I typed it out to vent and wrap my head around it all, but yeah, I was also hoping it might help someone else who may stumble upon it some day.

pie, the boy's dad is ok. Not great, but ok, which is better than his mom has been doing. The dad is going to be married to another friend of mine tomorrow ("incestuous" apartment complex here, heh). They've been together about 3 years and already have a blended family. The boy had lived with the blended bunch for about a year and only went back to his mom to see if having him around might help her or his sister.

I'm definitely keeping an eye on the kids. M still hasn't called me and I can't decide how long to leave her be before I try calling her or stopping by. I think I'm still needing some space from it all, too. Yesterday was the first day since it all began that I didn't have panic attacks and crying jags. I've got a bit of the effing PTSD from an old situation, and this dredged it up. I refused to self-medicate like I used to do, so that's something.

Hugs and warm thoughts to all of you.

posted by lilywing13 22 February | 17:51
Mounties always get their man um, can. || And yet they still play fewer sets.

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