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20 February 2007

Howdo bunnies! [More:]Just poking in to say hi and thanks for the texted, mailed and posted Valentines [you know who you are!] Bunnies, as always, know how to make a gal feel super special. I'm a bit bummed that I wasn't able to return the sentiments in kind, though I did have the grandest of ambitions at one point and was full of the fondest of thoughts for all of you.... Instead, I can see, I'll have to be stealthy and sneak Frisbee-tude on you to make up for it in the coming days.

Due, however, to a new job and an insane schedule [24 shifts in 13 days, with nary a day of rest], I've been even more out of the proverbial loop than usual. The upside of this craziness being that it matches the frame of my goal of, at last, paying off my student loans in their entirety and being debt free for the first time in 20 years. An impending reality that leaves me equally exhilarated and terrified.

From the day that I signed my first of several student loans, not a day has gone by that I haven't wanted that debt gone, railed against it, cursed it, lost sleep over it - though not too often, resented it...and ultimately became comfortable with it. But mostly resented it, I think. Though happy with the education that I've received in exchange, this debt has been something that has defined nearly every significant, and many insignificant, decisions I've made for the last 2 decades. Where I could live; what I could do [vacation? ha, surely, you jest!]; when I could take time off [never], what I could buy, how many jobs I'd need to not only make the payments, but also get ahead and have money to play with as well [an idea which brilliantly backfired as when one works 14 - 16 hours a day, six days a week, there is precious little time or energy left over for socializing.]

Fast forward to today...same as it ever was, to an extent. At 37, 13 hour days of running up and down two or three flights of stairs for days and nights on end, leaves precious little energy for anything else. The money's great, but I sleepily answer my phone right now by urgently calling out, "Pick up on table 102, please!!" to be met with laughter and yet another observation that I'm working way too much.

BUT! Now, I'm looking at less than $6K to go instead of the back breaking $60K + it once was. The biggest challenge I've faced is poised to fall away. The end of an era, so to speak, is in sight. What is not lost on me is that this very thing that I have yearned for in the deepest dark of night: a sense of freedom, a reprieve from constraints, a clean slate...all of this is visible on the horizon and in some moments, it feels as though it's the last thing I'm equipped for.
Sooooooo, yeah, how are you?
posted by Frisbee Girl 20 February | 11:03
Hi!
posted by interrobang 20 February | 11:12
yaaaay Frisbee Girl! it's so good to see you poke your head in.

believe me I totally understand about the debt thing. I'm a year or so older than you, but I've dealt with a lot of the same kind of thing.

congratulations on getting dug out from under all that, it is a huge weight. And the thing is, when you do get a chance to take some time for yourself, oh how much you will enjoy and appreciate it!

cheers!
posted by lonefrontranger 20 February | 11:21
Frisbee Girl! Yay!!!
posted by safetyfork 20 February | 11:22
I was just thinking the other day about how much I miss Fris. Great job on paying down your debt!
posted by muddgirl 20 February | 11:29
Woohoo, you go girl!
posted by ThePinkSuperhero 20 February | 11:31
Hiya, Friz, so lovely to see you!
posted by taz 20 February | 11:32
Awesome to hear from you and to hear that the debt is taking a biiiiiig hit, Frisbee!
posted by gaspode 20 February | 11:37
Fris fris fris fris fris fris fris!!!! Missed ya, luv ya! Still in SF, or moved to Chi-town yet?
posted by matildaben 20 February | 11:59
Great to hear from you!
posted by arse_hat 20 February | 12:00
Good for you fris!
posted by rainbaby 20 February | 12:02
Wow Fris, that's great and amazing and I can totally relate!

So nice to see you, darlin'. *whuffle*
posted by Specklet 20 February | 12:34
Congratulations! How wonderful!

(Trying not to think about my own still-accumulating student loans... sigh. They're worth it for me right now, though, I think. I hope!)
posted by occhiblu 20 February | 12:37
It's so good to hear from you! What a great horizon you have - free of that debt! Good for you!!!
posted by redvixen 20 February | 12:58
Awwwww, you all are wonderful! This wasn't meant to be a self congratulatory post so much as a bemused observation about how something you've tried to escape for so long can become something you become wary of letting go of...not that I intend to get all up to my ears in debt again, or anything. Just that people are strange creatures!

*cough*

Or perhaps just me.
posted by Frisbee Girl 20 February | 13:09
Nah, we're all strange to certain extents - that's what keeps us interesting!
posted by redvixen 20 February | 13:16
(((Frisbee Girl)))
posted by deborah 20 February | 16:25
All the layers of me (youtube). || yay for crazy weather!

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