I'm bawling my eyeballs out. →[More:]I missed our official presentation to the city council by about 5 minutes. We were inviting them to come join us at this creative conference thing we're doing in a couple of weeks. I went to the wrong building, and tried to call the other people in the group but all their phones were turned off. When they finally called me back they were having lunch celebrating the standing ovation they got at the meeting.

I'm just really frustrated. I've been at every meeting since we started in February, working my ass off like everyone else (more than some of the others, actually), and yet I still remain invisible to the press. My article I wrote on creativity got put on hold indefinitely (it was scheduled for August, b/c I thought it'd be a good time just before the conference). The same people in the group are getting all the press and it's just really frustrating. So that's why I'm bawling my eyes out and wondering what the fuck I am doing all this shit for and looking at how much time I have in the whole thing and seriously wondering what I'm getting out of it, if anything.

We're not getting rich from it, that's for damn sure. So I decided I would use it as a vehicle to market my creativity business. Except I'm not getting that, either. Sure feels like Monday to me.