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23 May 2006
I am having a bad and scary day. It's going to be okay, right? Right??? I wouldn't ask for reassurance if I didn't need it.
Thanks y'all. Put the tar, feathers, pitchforks, and sharks away, because I deserve it. My poverty has pissed my landlord off (again), and she's really (and deservedly) pissed at me. I thought the money was there, but because of a stupid oversight on my part, it wasn't.
Gah.
I can cover the rent, but I hate having people mad at me -- she's really, really mad -- and having to call her back is totally anxiety-inducing. Plus, I know I can't stay here much longer -- I just can't afford it. I don't even mind losing the house -- any set of rooms is the same as another.
But my garden, man. MY GARDEN!!!!
If nothing else, maybe this is the scary kick in the ass I need to start moving on with my life after a year (or 6) of stagnation. But it's scary, it makes my heart pound, and I'm just not good at dealing with this stuff right now.
The silver lining, I guess, is that at another point in my life I would have sufferend in silence and would have driven myself crazy over it. I'm so glad y'all are here for me to admit my stupid fuckups, and that you'll give me a pat on the head even though it's all my own damn fault. Thanks, peoples. Really.
Every single wonderful person in the universe has screwed up at least once, and probably multiple times. It's almost impossible to be a wonderful person without having had such an experience to temper the ego and add compassion.
Hang in there, mudpuppie. It'll be OK, no matter how it works out.
email me any time. I've had some rough times like this, so maybe I can tell you some things that, if not usefull, may make you feel a little less apprehensive.
You can come live with me and work in my garden! You can bring the hens and together we will build them the taj mahal of chicken coopdom which will amaze and invigorate the world! It will all be okay!
Sigh... a garden. Reminds me of a place that I loved and lost, but I at least had evil housemates and an evil landlord trying to out-evil each other to blame for that. Keep a stiff upper everything and just start transplanting evrything into containers...
I do have some leftover landlord-repellant spray I can send you... also works on land sharks.
Loads of people have been where you are-you will get through it. I can commiserate with you, and I hate any sort of confrontation-rather hide my head than face the rough stuff. There's lots of shoulders here to lean on, and loads of folks who care. You take care of you, and the rest will sort itself out.
I've been evicted and I've been broke (still am, really) so I know the stress that can be. And right now, tending to landscaping and gardening is a real comfort, so it's extra tough to think about losing something that can help you handle the stress.
But maybe this is an opportunity that's going to change things for the better!
Pup o' Noodles! Boy can I relate! But you will get through this, and you can see it as a sign to move on, or not, but I think everyone here is in agrrement that you would be happier elsewhere.
Having been in a similar situation in the past, I know how much this sucks. Well, it'll pass, and until then happy thoughts are being sent your way by one and all. Take care.
Just talked to my landlord and, while she's not thrilled, I've made an arrangement with her. The phone call had me really, really nervous (like, the physically-ill kind of nervous), but y'all's support gave me the courage to do it, regardless of whatever outcome I was imagining.
Thank you so much. I can't tell you how much it means, and I can't tell you how much suffering you saved me.
Oh, sweetheart, I'm so sorry you're going through this. Glad you were able to work something out that quells the butterflies, though. It's not much help, I know, but you're welcome in my garden (and home) any time you want. Many whuffles to you, amiga.
Aw, baby! I'm sooooo sorry it's been ucky! Also, I agree with Lipstick.
(I'm hugging you so hard, right now! Yes, really, really hard. You'll be glad when I stop. There, I've stopped! Now, doesn't that feel better? Breathe!)
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