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09 March 2006
So... how are you? What have you been doing recently? →[More:] Please answer in 50 words or less because I have a short attention span.
So-So. It's been a stressful couple of weeks, and I'm not sure what to do about it. Too much time on the computer, not enough to show for it. For some reason I'm excessively worried these days that I'm alientating/have alienated people that I don't know that well but care about nonetheless.
Also, "suck it haters!" continues as my favorite phrase.
Also, I got the Fonotone Boxset (Go Maryland!) last night, and it has a bunch of early stuff by John Fahey (including him singing!), which rocks.
Working part time at home on a sorta crazy website. Learning as I go. Digging up the garden. Drinking. Smoking cigarettes and contemplating the nature of the universe. The usual, really. You?
You're not alienating anyone in this neighborhood, OmieWise.
I'm wide open and emotional and rollercoastering soemthing fierce. It's just one of them life thangs. I've been happier and I've been sadder, and right now I'm just OK and worried and wondering.
But tonight I'm going to the CD release party for the Record Production project! I get to party like a rock star, for real. Yay-hoo. Bright spot.
PMSing. Avoiding bridges closed by windstorms. Got a big raise at work. Giving and getting emotional support. Traveling this weekend. Missing scrabble and laid-back banter with a certain monkey friend.
Doing very little today, boobie still very sore. Went and fed my friend's cats while she's in Barcelona. Let them out because it was fine. Now they won't come back in again. But they have a little shed they can go in, so I put food in there for them. They hate me.
An AA Big Book Study tonight, with a new sponsee, if she turns up. I'll set the VCR for ER and My Name Is Earl (we are a few months behind in the UK on both shows).
Feeling anxious inside, worrying about the biopsy I had yesterday. A bit worried about work too - I had a 6-week gap after George died when I wasn't very productive (3 of those weeks I was in the US anyway) and although I've exceeded target, I am seen as a top performer in the team and have fallen below expectations. So I think I can kiss goodbye to any bonus this time round. Our bonuses aren't huge, only £1,000 after tax, but I can usually rely on it twice a year to boost my income and give me a little silly money.
I've been stressed, especially because I'm going on vacation next week, so I feel the need to wrap up the 1,000 loose ends at work before I go. Ahhh. Luckily I can see the light at the end of the tunnel- Saturday night flight, woot woot!
I was finally able this week to bust out of a 6-week long funk. Don't know what that was all about, but I'm feeling much better now. I think the Mecha voicemail thing had a lot to do with that - you people leave me the best messages.
Plus it's 70° outside, work has been fine, I'm picking up my daughter from school in a few hours... things are actually pretty great. Woo!
Feeling a little overwhelmed by everything I need to do in the next few months, but also managing my life better than I ever have before. Spending a lot of time thinking I should follow my instincts about certain things in my life, then remembering how my instincts have failed me in the past (why can't life be like a Choose Your Own Adventure book where you can cheat and go back if you don't like where you end up?). Sort of looking forward to my spring break next week, but mostly because it's an opportunity to play catch-up. Trying to keep my cat (who has cancer) as comfortable as possible in what are probably her last few months. Enjoying the warmer weather.
Blood Pressure is down to reasonable level (new meds and adjusted dosage.) On the warpath against evildoers with a March 28 deadline for them to seek an injunction or eat shit and die. Getting a few applicants for my soon-to-be-empty duplex unit, but I made the mortgage payment this month.
Money is tight, the prospect of combat is in the air and I continue to maintain the initiative against the bad guys. There are good possiblities of serious reinforcements arriving before we start shooting.
Life is good. I'm launching some diversionary attacks while waiting out the deadline, just to keep the ungodly on their toes.
Disclaimer: The above isn't part of my 50 words. Neither is this disclaimer.
Planting seeds for creative facilitation sessions. 3 potential takers so far. My hunch: it'll be viral once I get some productive sessions behind me. Working on a creative conference in september here. helping nonprofits with web stuff. saw the Dr today after being snottish for 2 weeks.
And now I must venture forth to the pharmacy to obtain antibiotics.
Hmm. Snow here 300 miles to the north of Specklet and 100 miles north of the Seattle crew. Not sticking, but this is only the second time in 30+ years here I've seen snow this late.
Working hard at work and at play (which is feeling a bit like work lately). For the last few weeks I haven't been home Tues, Wed, Thurs until way too late. And, I have become the worst French student in my class because I'm spending too much time working on other projects. I play a show tomorrow night in Brooklyn and I think we'll rock.
Busy at work and about to go into overdrive -- have less than a month to finish up editing a huge book manuscript for an upcoming Magritte exhibition catalogue, and a significant amount of material has only come in today, or isn't expected until next week. So I literally have 3 weeks to do about 3 months of work. Though it's going to get crazy, I'm actually not too overly stressed, given that I like my job, like the people I'm working with on this project, and am in line for a promotion/raise afterwards. Woo!
Otherwise: spending most of my spare time with boyfriend, friends, or family. Haven't written in ages, and yet don't feel too worried about it. Overall: pleasantly content. I actually said to my therapist the other day, "I have no issues about anything at all."
Aw, thanks, miko! I had sort of expected that I'd disappoint her by not having anything to sort out (I even wracked my brains in the elevator to think of things I might be fretting about, even vaguely, but came up blank), but instead she was delighted. So we just chatted about all the little things we both take pleasure in or feel grateful for these days. It's definitely a pretty new and lovely place to be in.
And oh yeah, all this is happening while I've been tapering off my antidepressants for the past several weeks, which I find rather interesting...
omiewise, I hope the day turned out to not be horrible after all. Glad you like the song. I can't wait to record a few more and put out an ep (hopefully in time for our summer mini-tour plans).
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