1. Swimming in a sea of tiny details at work and just wanting to read the Blogess and/or go home and play Glitch.

2. Damn ankle tendonitis is flaring up again and I find this terrifying. Seriously.

3. Down to 117. Only 7 more pounds to go. Damn my love of wine and pizza!

amro, have you tried regularly taking chaste tree berry extract? Like night and day.

(((((((amro))))))

1. Work today sucked donkey balls. A lot of people needing my time, and not enough time for my own stuff.

2. I've been trying to Freecycle some stuff for days now and people email me and say "yes, yes, I really want this, don't give it to anyone else!! I need this!" So I tell them, yes, it's yours if you want it, let me know in the next 24 hours and then three days later, when I haven't heard from them, I offer it to someone else, then the first person contacts me, and I tell them that because I didn't hear from them, I offered it to someone else, and then the second person doesn't contact me again and ... GRRRAAAARRRR!

3. But Young Apprentice is on tonight, and I have some of the delicious pork roast I made yesterday for dinner, so things are not all bad.

3. It is a lovely fall day outside. If the doggies wouldn't bark at everyone, I'd take them for a walk.

2. My phone arrived today. I want to play with it but really should focus on work. A pox on being responsible.

1. I gave notice today. My manager was shocked but understanding. Though given I was in serious consideration for another position this summer, I'm not sure why it was so shocking. I got a bit teary when I called a couple coworkers to let them know.

1. Fighting off a new case of bronchitis. I've been sick for a week now, and finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. Yay for cough medicine that makes you sleep through the coughing!

2. Reading Lamb ten years after it came out. I had already heard good things about the book, but it's even funnier than I thought it would be.

3. After this thread on the blue, and in need of honey, I read the label for the first time and was surprised to find that the label at my local grocery market is all local, and evidently, real honey.

amro, have you tried regularly taking chaste tree berry extract?

No, but I have taken evening primrose oil in the past and that helped, with the emotional stuff anyway. Maybe I will try it again or try chaste tree berry.

amro, your boyfriend is probably terrified of saying the wrong thing, or something insensitive. If you can get some face time, substitute hugs for words (on his part. You pour your lil heart out). Hugs/holding is easy. Hard to mess that up.

1. Great weekend. I kissed a dude on stage in the course of our musical improv duet. Video may surface, but apparently, we were good. The accompanist told me even gave us an extra verse at the end!

Also met some new bunnies and saw some old ones, too.

2. Oh man, I keep trying to swear off women (well, dating), then I get mixed signals. Apparently, kissing a guy on the main stage? No problem. Attractive lady, in front of our class? Problem. Curse you, hormones! And overthinking!

(The ending was so awkward (after such an otherwise strong scene & song) that the instructors actually made us do it AGAIN. That didn't make it more awkward at ALL, nooo. At least she was equally or more awkward than I was. Maybe she didn't realize I know what I'm doing on a stage, maybe would try to slip her some tongue? Heh. But you can't make this shit up!)

(Oh, and I totally didn't steer the scene that way. It was her idea! Something about me says, awkward first kiss, even now that I'm in my 30s. I shall play the same. Character. Forever.)

(I'm actually a pretty *good* kisser, at least according to the yelp page for my lips. Yeah. You heard me.)

3. Worst commute ever. Time for a new job. =(

And I actually kinda like my job. =(

amro, I'm sorry you're having such a sucky day :(

Congratulations bluesapphires! Good luck in your new job.

1. I'm still not completely over my ex. I guess this is inevitable, given that's only been about a week, but I keep playing through scenarios in my mind, wondering what I could have done differently. It doesn't help that we have a little more stuff to sort out, some videos he needs, stuff still at each other's places and so on. He's come over twice so far, and I've been keeping my cool, but inside I just want to shake him and have it all go back the way it was.

2. I think I'm coming to realize that we just jumped into this way too fast. He told me he loved me within the first week of knowing each other -- when I said that he couldn't possibly, he responded that he loved what he knew of me so far. At the time this satisfied me, but I think it should have alerted me to us having very different definitions of "love."

3. Work, work, work, why won't you work? Meeting at 4 pm with the advisor and I've worked all weekend and have not much to show for it. This is is disappointing.

1. Unpacking all the things (meant to be moved to Seattle), taking pictures, and posting them for sale on Craigslist.
2. Hoping I can raise $200 from the lot.
3. Telling myself those pangs are just misplaced sentimentality and not actual chest pains.

3a. Hating all the watchers on eBay waiting to snipe my synthesizer.

Congratulations bluesapphires! Good luck in your new job.

Thanks!

amro, I'm useless at relationship issues, but I guess from what you've told me that your bf spends much of his day having to avoid saying what he's really feeling in his job so maybe that carries over into his home life too. And, as Eideteker says, he might be worried that whatever he says will come out the wrong way - too flippant, too serious, too dismissive, so he says nothing instead.

1. For the umpteenth time in my career so far, I was told today that I have a great phone voice and phone manner. This was during a tech support phone call in which we found out that the username for two websites we use for the same application is actually case sensitive in the second one and there's a different password. The person who said I have a great phone voice was a doctor who had come in just to electronically sign a death certificate in time for a funeral which was being held today. Like, right as we were doing the electronic fingerprint. Talk about your grace under pressure.

2. My commute is not as bad as Eide's, but I don't like it either. I would really love to work closer to home. But I'm also too afraid to jump ship, even if this particular ship may be sinking already.

3. I still can't get over how awesome my Friday night was because not only did I get to hear Tim Minchin sing "Hallelujah" for his second encore (with everyone in the atheist-friendly audience singing the chorus softly, melodically, and reverently), I ended the night by having drinks atop a rooftop bar in Chelsea, having drinks and conversation alongside a fairly well-known young adult novelist. And I got some pretty good advice from someone in publishing regarding my goals. Time to do some adjusting!

*hugs for amro*
Yay, bluesapphires!
Sounds like it was better for that relationship to be over, peacheater. Even if it does suck now.

1. I have to go to the gym tonight. I am nervous about this because I haven't been in a while (a couple of weeks). If I get out of my routine, all my social anxiety about new places comes back. But the only way to get through it is to actually GO.

2. So ready for school to be OVER. I've submitted everything for graduating this term (and am just waiting to hear if I've passed my e-portfolio or not). I just have to make it through that (and theoretically, I should find out about that this month sometime) and finish up my last 2 classes, which suck and are completely boring. Only 6 weeks to go!

3. I've been playing phone tag with my current pdoc to reschedule an appointment that I made without double checking my planner (and mixed up 2 weeks) and while I've been waiting to hear back from them, my OLD pdoc called and left a voicemail (addressed to me) that if I wanted a prescription refill that I would have to make an appointment. I haven't seen the old pdoc since June (because they are an incompetent asshole) and don't have any prescriptions from her anymore (see also: incompetent assholeishness) and I'm curious as to what the hell prompted her to call.

1. Sore from walking/running about three miles today, but happy that it's just soreness.

2. Hub lost his job six weeks ago, and we've gotten to the belt-tightening portion of the year, but expenses coming up. He's gotten some leads on contract work, but everyone is dragging their feet.

3. Younger Boy finally got his shit together and started settling down at school. Which also meant he got his yellow belt in karate back.

1. Had a great workout.

2. Held my own in a meeting.

3. Didn't eat or drink enough. Hello, headache.

*hugs amro*

1. Very disappointed that I had to cut my CT trip short due to the freak snow.
2. Something bit my pinky and it's so swollen the skin is cracking.
3. Need to firm up my plans for getting out of the city on New Years.

So if this link works, you should be able to see my performance.

When I was having really bad pms, dong quai totally helped to bring forth the menses. MENSES!
Talk with the boyfriend about it. You've brought up his muteness a couple times now.

1. I'm kind of miffed I didn't get glowing praise for my psychedelic medicine lecture, which I thought went rather well. I have to do it again tomorrow.

2. All I want to do is be slack and eat things that are bad for me, in bed with a heated pad thing. Must write papers. Phhhfffttt.

3. Could be bored enough to date.

1. Still adjusting to being back from our long trip to China and Hong Kong. Only finished unpacking yesterday. Brought in my new tea mug and some of the tea we bought and brewing and drinking that helps bridge the gap between there and here. Petting our pets on a regular basis helps too but I admit to carting one of our kitties downstairs and closing the stairway door last night when she was banging our upstairs bathroom door at THREE AM. Oh the curse of owning" a smart and determined kitty!

2. Due to hateful Outlook 2010 (curse you, badly designed software installed in my absence!) found out today I have to talk for 45 minutes tonight to a bunch of students on a topic likely at most to occupy 10. Hope they have lots of questions for the big gap.

3. Didn't get any exercise in this AM, due to 1. above. Maybe that's a good thing as 2. is definitely going to delay dinner for me until quite late.

1. Spent a portion of yesterday at one of those apprasial fairs..for $5 an item, they'll give you a rough estimate of worth. We brought an original pastel painting we picked up for $5 at an estate auction. Well....we were directed to call a "better" appraiser from NY, because there is a distict possibility that our painting could be worth a tidy amount of money. Please keep your fingers crossed.

2. Am having lunch tomorrow with my sister-in-law, the first time in a dozen years that she and I have ever dined alone. She's a very sweet person, but my fear is that we'll have nothing to talk about. Yikes.

3. I guess #3 is that life is rolling along rather smoothly for the moment, which is wonderful and long overdue.

(((((amro))))