Boo! I guess I dropped off the grid for a while. I'm back.→[More:]

Stressful winter. Visited family, and made it home just in time for my grandmother to pass away. I'm doubly grateful I lost my job last year, since it gave me a lot more time to spend with her. We had lunch twice a week for months, I never would have had that if I'd been working.

I was a real mess for a while after it happened. I got up, stared into space, played video games, cried, and went to bed. Haven't been here, facebook, LJ, outside my house, really anything.

It is getting easier now, though. She was just such a major part of my life, and probably the greatest single influence I've ever had. A great void was left with her passing. For me it will never fill, but I'm getting used to living around the void now.

I have her sewing machine now, it's the one I learned how to sew on. Old Singer, simply breathtaking. Still looks new despite being about 62 years old. It was a wedding present from my grandfather and I strongly suspect the first new thing she ever owned that was truly hers.

What else? Hm...

I thought 18 credit hours would be do-able since I'm not working.
I thought wrong.

Since, you know, there's that whole "sleep" thing. I'm fond of it. More than I was at 19.
I'm filing the paperwork to withdraw from my most work-intensive classes on Wednesday, and feel a million times better. 15 I can do. I did 15 in the Fall and made Dean's List without any trouble. 18 was killing me.
Besides, it was a class I needed only for the three English credit hours it gave me. It didn't fill any specific requirement besides "be an english class." So I can just take whatever they offer over the summer.

And now that I'm not literally surviving on five or six hours of sleep a night I'm back. :)