I'm mad at myself →[More:]I want to kick myself in the shin!
I think I just screwed myself out of an opportunity to go on tv and represent my company that I did want to do in retrospect.

So the PR coordinator came in to the office where I sit with my boss and wanted one of us to do this tv interview. My boss seemed a little uncomfortable with the idea and I said I would do it if I got some preparation on the subject of the interview, but we were both being very wishy-washy.
The PR person said "So who's going to do it?"
And my boss said, "well, it looks like rmless really wants to"
and I was all "oh, either way" (which isn't like me but I didn't want to be seen as grabby)
and he was like "Ok then I am doing it."

And that was that.
But now I realize about 10 reasons why it would be better if I do it (one of them is because I want to go on tv, but the others are legit) and now it is too late.

DAGNABBIT.