Jesus I hate feeling unsafe I just went across the street to the convenience store from my office and some dude followed me in and was asking my name and for my number and trying to chat me up.
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I realize I'm probably overreacting but I was part of that big thread a while back about "what are you reading" and I hate that I have to assume the worst about some random dude who was probably just trying to be nice, but I mean, I walk to work and back and thank goodness my coworker drove today and he is going to give me a ride home when we leave. I have no idea if that dude is just lingering around waiting for me.
He was outside when I left my office, I saw him before I walked in the store.
I hate that I have to feel unsafe. What if no one else had been here today? I guess I'd be calling a taxi to get a ride home because that dude could have been psycho and just waiting for me to come out of the office later.
Fucking happy new year. I wish that having a gun would make me feel safer but I know it won't because I don't think I'd get to use it before it was taken from me. And that makes me feel helpless and small. I haven't been this shook up in a while. I was shaking and crying when I got back to the office, more because I am so pissed that I can't assume he was just nice. I know it's usually people you know that rape you, but still. Wtf. I feel like an awful person for having to assume the worst just so I can feel safe. That's how wars get started.