How do you feel about STUFF? →[More:]
I mean, like, things. Possessions.
I think about this a lot because I'm usually broke and living within my means is not something I excel at.
I don't have much trouble containing my desires for household stuff. Occasionally I get bummed that I can't have nicer furniture, or whatever, but it's pretty fleeting. Needless to say I don't enjoy browsing at Ikea or whatever.
Things I feel a twinge of need for are often techy: I confess to infrequently wishing I had an iPhone because they're so darn pretty. I have a non-iPod MP3 player that I've been very happy with, but it's a few years old, the screen is dying, the battery cover is missing, and it doesn't do playlists or even read id3 tags correctly all the time. And my laptop... well, it's over four years old, and it shuts down randomly several times a day, and the hinge is broken, so it's held in a 90º position with duct tape and angle brackets because if I close it, the screen unplugs.
So I have occasional feelings that rise within me, telling me I NEED better, nicer, newer things. I try to tell myself that not being stinking rich builds character. For the most part I'm fine, and I make the things I do have work for me as best I can.
I also struggle a bit with clothing lust. I'm not a fashionista at all, but I do wish I could improve myself, and I look at style sites a lot and long for things. I hate this habit, because I don't understand my motivations. I feel like the desires are driven by some ugly feelings -- stuff that clothes can't fix. And I don't want to be a consumer. I know intellectually that it's stupid and meaningless, yet I have the feelings sometimes anyway.
Fortunately, my urges are kept in check by financial realities. But it does irk me sometimes, that I can't have nice things. Why do I want "nice things"? I don't know. Maybe having the means to accumulate "nice things" is a kind of power over my life that I feel I'm lacking.
What is your relationship with STUFF?